Tears

Tell me when it's my turn to have a happy ending....

When will I be the one to win??

I was so stupid thinking that I could compete with Jewels. 

So stupid thinking that Jerry would choose me over Kirsten. 

So stupid to think that Corey would want to be more than friends with me. 

Stupid Stupid Stupid....

I thought that finally I had a chance against all of these beautiful girls, Jolted straight back to reality in one day.

Is it so wrong that I want someone to like me??

Is it wrong that I wish I would be on his mind as much as he's on mine?????

Is it so wrong to want to be someone's first choice for once???

Here comes the summer

Okay, so we all know that schools almost out and we're all extremely excited, and to celebrate that i'm having a party.
^_^
It's not a big party and there will not be a lot of drinking and blah blah whatever, because we aren't like that. but there's going to be dancing and LOTS of fun. I'm really excited. This is our last full week of school. Next week no school on Monday and then school is out on next Thursday.

Coninuation...
Okay so I know this is really nothing but still, it's pretty big. The eighth grade graduation.
I have the perfect dress and it's complete with the perfect shoes and everything. Not only is continuation gonna be great but so is the eighth grade picnik. Our new principal doesn't care what we wear to the picnik so me and my friends are going all out and wearing SUMMER clothes :D So excited.

Alright now here's the real reason i'm writing this post.
Corey.
Alright so Jerry is a jerk wagon. Yeah I liked him, but I mean it wasn't really anything important, and my friend did something really bitchy and now he thinks i'm the creepiest person ever, and TBH I do not care.
Now here's the thing, Corey, him and I have never really talked before this last weekend.
Images, choir, orchestra, AND band went to Elitches last Friday so we got to ditch and hang out the ENTIRE day just doing whatever at the theme park. I was Kirsten and she ditched me to hang out with Emily (surprise, surprise) but then I decided to hang out with Maia, Monica, Kai'lee, Wyatt, Devlyn, and ... Corey :)
Like I said Corey and I had never talked before this trip, and that's okay because now that we have it's great. He is such a sweet guy. He's funny, and really cute.
We have been texting ALL weekend and same on monday and today. Even when the conversation is about to die he won't let it. He doesn't respond in an instant but it doesn't take him that long. <3

Anyways, I invited him to my party. I'm hoping something will happen that night. Maybe not literally SOMETHING but maybe sparks, chemistry, ya know what I mean.
And at continuation I'm hoping I'll stun him. It may not happen cause Emma may look better than me but I doubt it :) She may be cute, but i'm beautiful :D

Haha that's just me being optimistic, so you shut your face ^_^
 Anyways, Wish me luck!! I really like him and he's acting like he might like me too <3

LOVE YOU BLOGERS,
yours truely
Catlynn Crimson<3

Can I have this dance?

Take my hand. Take a breath. Pull me close... and Take one step.
Keep your eyes. Locked to mine. Let the music be your guide.
Won't you promise me? We'll keep dancing, wherever we go next.

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together. We just keep on gettin' better.
So Can I have this dance?

Take my hand. I'll take the lead. Every turn will be safe with me.
Don't be afraid. Afraid to fall. You know i'll catch you, through it all.
And you can't keep up apart.
Cause my heart is wherever you are.


It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together. We just keep on gettin' better.
So Can I have this dance?

Jeremiah...

Alright, So I know this blog post is long over-due. Okay well, I have not a lot to say but it is pretty important I let you guys know that I don't think i'm ever going to get over Jared. I hate the fact that I never shut up about him, and never stop blogging about him no matter how hard I try. . . He really is perfect to me but I'm not to him and that's fine, I don't care what he thinks about me as long as he's happy.

So, here's the reason I am writing this. There's this guy... His name is Jerry... Or Jeremiah^^ as you can tell by the title. I really like this guy, and he's so cute, he's extremely smart and he seems nice.... but the thing is he likes this other girl. Her name is Jewels. . . She's one of my really good friends, but she doesn't like him... At all..
It's not fair. . . I know life isn't fair and blah blah but the other guy I like, Sage, Likes her too. It's like COME ON. What are the fucking chances???

I don't even care anymore. I'm done trying... I'm so done with this.

Signed,
Yours Truely
Catlynn Crimson

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


What would you do if tomorrow I didn't wake up. What if tonight was my last night? What would you regret not telling me?
Would you miss me? Would you cry?

Just something to occupy your mind.