Wow, that's just awesome.

So sorry I haven't been updating, D: I've been kinda sorta busy for the last week. :P Well, i'm with my friend Hallie today and we're gonna just hang out all day, we're gonna see Sarah later today and I was excited for that... emphasis on the WAS. I was creepin' on her blog earlier and saw that yesterday she went to the mall with her friends and actually met up with this chick that she met on Vampire Freaks. This girl had messaged me like thursday night asking if her and I were still dating and I was like
"No not really, but I want to date her again and I think she might ask me out. Why?"
then she asks me "Well she's really hot and I was wondering if you would be okay with me asking her out"
and then I said "I would rather you didn't"
Then this b!+ch goes "Well i'm still gonna" and I haven't heard from her since, then when I talked to Sarah about she said that the girl wanted to meet up at like the mall or something, but then that not this weekend cause she wants to get to know her better. I asked her if she thought anything was going to happen and Sarah told me she really didn't think so, and ya know I finally told her I DO want to date her again and so now she goes and she's hanging out with this girl...awesome. Well, that's what's going on.

I'm happy for her, cause maybe now she'll believe that girls don't find her un-atractive, but still, I guess i'm just done with everything, and everyone. No one really likes ME, just me. There's always someone better. I lost my chance with her and no guys like me so, I guess i'll just be alone, it's her turn to have the good relationship... even if it's not with me. I just wish that SOMEONE would just once, choose me over the other person they have a choice between... I'll never be anyone's first choice.

Well, on that depressing note. I gtg.

Sarah will be here any moment and I gotta put on that smile so she won't see what's going on... like I have been since I broke up with her.

P.S- Sarah if you read this, don't bring it up. I'll get over it, okay? So just don't worry about it. There's nothing you can do.