Okay, so as you know, I have a HUGE crush on my best friends brother.... (Cliche I know)
Him and I were actually getting pretty close and we had done some things but everytime any hint of a relationship brewing would come up he'd say the same thing to me "I'm not really looking for a relationship"
I understand that. I respected it too, and ya know, I honestly didn't care... Yeah I wanted to date him, but I didn't, like, NEED to or anything. I guess I talk to much, and scared him or SOMETHING and he just stopped talking to me. Typical teenage player, it hurt to know that I was so easily given up but whatever. I've been trying SO hard to get over him, but I can't. I compare every guy to him, and honestly think about him all the time. I hate that I can't get over him, but egh, whatever, I'm getting there.
So, after me and Jared stopped talking I tried soo fucking hard to forget him... Then this guy comes along. I really liked him and he said he really liked me. So of course I went for it. Thomas was not only a complete sweet heart, but he was cute too! Everything he did was just plain adorable.
Then along came issue number 1... things were really awkward between me and him because he's shorter than I am... not by much but still. That seemed to be really the only bad thing about all this.
Now here's a little side info...
Kirsten one of my other best friend's was dating Thomas's best friend, Kyle... Kirsten and Kyle seemed to really like each other until Kirsten spilled issue number 2....
Kirsten didn't like Kyle... She never really did. Can you guess who she DID like though?? Thomas.
I've always had an issue in comparing my self to other people, so when I heard this I immedietelly looked at everything good about her and everything bad about me.
Kirsten is absolutely gorgeous.
She's a gymnast so she is flexible...
She has a really cute voice...
She's got stunning blue eyes... (Not to mention Blue is Thomas's fav. Eye color and mine are brown...)
She's short-ish so her and Thomas look good together...
She's got a rockin' body from gymnastics....
and so on...
I could go on and on about all the good things she has that I don't.
So, one night Thomas and I are talking over Facebook and I ask him plain out and simple... Do You Like Kirsten.
He told me that he didn't. He likes her as a friend and that's it.
That was it, I believed him all was well.... until one week later.
TCAP started at our school and IDK what started going on, but him and Kirsten started talking more, and him and her would have tickling wars at recess and she would randomly jump on his back. This all seriously pissed me off, they flirting out rageously RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME... What The Fuck man.... that is NOT cool... so while all this is going on, i'm really un-easy about all this... Then one night I got fed up with it and I texted him....
Me- So... Do you really not like Kirsten?
Thomas- No I do
Me- Then why did you tell me you didn't?
Thomas- Because I didn't.. Now I do.
Me- (no response)
Thomas- Is that okay? I feel guilty now.
Me- NO it's not okay.... She's my best friend!
and she's dating YOUR best friend.!
Thomas- I know.
**15 minutes later**
Me- So here's the question.... Me or Her
Thomas- Her
Such a douche baggy move RIGHT? Not to mention later on he tried to convince me and Kirsten that Kyle never liked Kirsten and that he told Thomas that it was okay to ask her out.
I started texting Kyle and it was all a lie.... NOW WE'RE ALL SINGLE BECAUSE OF THAT JACK ASS
Boys are fucking stupid... and plus, the worst part about all this?? Kirsten actually likes Thomas and they're dating now.
I still like him too :( but there's no way in hell I'm gonna win him back from Kirsten....
Beautiful, right?
I mean DO YOU SEE THOSE EYES??
It's not fair.... but I mean when it all comes down to it... Who would YOU choose?
Me Or Her?
After all of this i'm trying to get over Thomas and of course I throw myself into a heartbreaking situation.
Ben...
He can play guitar...
He can play drums...
He can sing...
He has beautiful eyes....
A breath taking smile...
And a body like a swim suit model ;)
And the thing is, He likes me too :))
The catch?? He has a choice to make... ME... or this other girl... Emily.
He's going on date's with both of us to make his final decision....
There date was Friday and I heard from both of them that it was amazing.
And the only way that he'll choose me over her is if I can make it just that itty bitty amount better....
God I hope I can.
FUCK HOPE... I KNOW I CAN
And just as a refresher... here's me^^Well that is all bloggers.... Byyyeeee
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