Have you ever...

Have you ever broke down sobbing after so long of being strong?
Knelt down to the floor, hands on your face. You claw and grasp at your forehead when you let out that first gasp. You try to be quiet but eventually it becomes loud, heart wrenching sobs. You cry and cry and cry, so much you can't breath. You ask whoever is "up there" Why? WHY ME? You eventually completely collapse on the floor on your stomach. The sobs slowly turn into nothing and you lay there, numb. Not wanting to ever move again. Wishing it would all just end.... Have you ever wanted to die so badly that you thought you would.